Yes I am a “bit” stubborn and strong willed! When I make my
mind up it’s made up…even if it is the wrong choice, decision, thought, action
or intention. I am a heart girl………..meaning it’s bigger than I am or will ever
be! I try to live up to my heart daily. Sounds weird I know, but you have to
know me to get it. The deepness of my heart is like the black hole that seems
to constantly be aching inside me. I want to give and do and change so much
that it overwhelms me but it mostly causes great hurt and sadness inside
me. Now to go along with my giant
“red” hole...(black doesn’t suit it) comes amazing strength, Compassion and
gentleness. All these things have caused me a great deal of hurt as I trust
people way to easily and will give anyone the benefit of the doubt. Some would
call that “Being Naive” however I am not that at all. I see in people that
which most don’t see in themselves and want to draw it out of them. The shity
part of that is that I also see the not so good in them. However I have chosen
to help and love them anyway. It is my greatest flaw, yet one of my greatest
rewards. The point I am making is that this “journey” as I call it has taken me
down the long road…one that seems never ending, twisty, rough, smooth,
desolate, and crowded. But it is a road that I have found my inner strength,
true love, patience, understanding, self-discovery, unbearable pain and fear,
alive, enlightened and so many more things. I know my road has not come to my
waterfall ending yet, and that there is so much more of it to travel, but I
look forward to it now because I’m not alone on this road. I have people in my
life although…. very few who have stayed on this journey with me. It is them
that I am the MOST proud of and eternally grateful to for everything they are
to me.
I Love you!
~T~
